My Freaking Life!

THX! =)

2008-11-27T08:16:00.000-08:00

Hey all!!!..would like to thank everyone for all the birthday wishes for me..im really blessed to have u all ard me..i really appreciate it..thx again ya...have a great day ahead!
=)

2008-11-10T05:51:00.000-08:00

haiz..i dont know wad to do..someone it seems impossible.. the past can never be forgotten..im still hated for it..but dont all of us deserve a second chance? now im going thru the pain..and i only have myself to blame.. haiz....how long more will i continue weeping? why issit so hard for me to move on...if only u know...given the chance to make everything right..i will definetly take it..but it will never come..maybe my prayers were nt answered.. but i dont know how long more can i handle all this..im almost out of strength.. almost lost the will to live... take care my frens

2008-10-30T10:41:00.000-07:00

All this while i've been alone
To live in a world so cold
My days were nvr bright nor colourful
It was dull and all so painful

I have no one to tell my secrets to
No one to share with what i've been thru
No one to give my concerns to
No one to let my emotions run thru
It all changed when i found you
Now im beginning to fall for you
Catch me if i do,at least i know u're there
All you have to do is to show that u care
Even though sometimes life aint fair

Now im beginning to feel the bliss
The feeling you have when u had ur kiss
I hope this feeling will nvr cease
Just so u know, u're the one i'll always miss

2008-10-20T06:19:00.000-07:00

Arab lazy to blog..Arab's fwenz kindly tell hym this..

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k2..ida should ryte something better..owner suroh..hmm..so..erm...ouhkae,im stuck..what happen today was..he slept..and he smoke(for sure)..and he went to sch??..i dunnoe..wei!u blog lar..i dunnoe what to ryte..

Ida Deluna(:

fasting month

2008-09-24T16:32:00.000-07:00

sorry for being dead all this while...now im back...(going to be dead again after this)...alot of ppl have been bugging me to update so here i am ... its a bz month now..ramadhan.. thats why im kinda of lazy to update my blog though u guys see me online alot..but if u read my pm properly...u know that im not at my comp...haha..bz sleeping..going to celebrate raya soon..not really looking forward to it much..im dead sleepy now..been going kiamulai...my first time doing it..juz got back from mosque and here i am typing this entry..planning to have a game of dota b4 i sleep..hahah..

syaz...hahaha..sorry for always disturbing u...but pls la...just do wad i ask can? haha..its fun though..and ida..don be rude to abah okay!.. smack u upside down left right front back then u know..

k la..i donno wad to say already..time for dota =) msg me if there's anything..dont bother msn-ing..cause im always sleeping..haha.. take care

Arab

update

2008-09-15T23:48:00.000-07:00

well im back..after so long..sorry but was too lazy to update my blog..news for fnbc..like i said..i wont be joining u guys for prac this month..maybe till after raya ends.. and since u guys wanna compete in the comp..i say go for it..i wont be entering it.. life's sucky now..so bored..got nothing to do at home...since fasting month, go out also donno go where.. well..have to tahan for 2 more weeks.. then celebration time.. ok then take care for now..haha..thats all folks..

arab

i miss you

2008-09-02T17:25:00.000-07:00

i dont know why i can stop thinking about you...why issit so easy for u to move on..i'm still stuck here..i just wish that u'll come back..one day..i bet u hardly even think of me now..my eyes are tired crying..yeah ppl say life goes on...true..but where? i've got no where to go now..so where will life take me? im lost..sad..alone..

Arab

poem for her

2008-08-17T23:56:00.000-07:00

Come to me in my dreams, at least there's where i'll get to see u.
Come to me in my dreams, so i'll wake with a smile and not feel blue.
Come to me in my dreams, i miss u and i miss ur smile.
Come to me in my dreams, let's make this worthwhile.

I put my heart out on the line only for u, telling u exactly how i feel only to have nothing said back in return. U are like the world but im nothing to u.
One day maybe u'll realise i meant every word i said. It call came from the heart, every single one ripped out of it. Its the hardest thing to love someone and have them not love u back. But im going to keep my feelings out there to u.
Cause sooner or later u'll realise how much i love u.

Monsoon has came Bringing endless rain
Similar to what i feel every single day
A feeling so common yet so hard to bear
The feeling of pain making my heart tear
Every single day My heart wept tears that u will never see
U hurt me so bad, my wounds cut deep
How can u like me yet like another Am i not worthy enough
Or are u just better off without me I've tried so hard to make u happy
Gave u the bliss that we can share for eternity I've longed for u, ur eyes and ur beautiful smile But u left,crushing all my hopes and dreams
Why must this be? Its like a nightmare that i never want to see
Once a lover, now a friend
Lets not play pretend
I love u and u know its true
Give me a chance and i'll prove it to you

Everything has changed We're now two different people
Living one life, In a lonely world I needed you
But you promised someone else
Leaving me to cry Till my tears run dry
When you said those words my life turned upside down and now I am lost and lonely. I will always love you.
Even if you find I am not what you want
Now that u've made up ur mind
There's nothing i can do what more rewind
U've made that choice and so it seem
I'll leave u to be together with him

lost of phone

2008-08-12T10:19:00.001-07:00

I LOST BOTH MY HANDPHONES.

its been awhile

2008-08-11T03:26:00.000-07:00

hey hey...haha..im back...cause u peeps keep bugging me to update! life's been okay...NDP SUCKS! the fireworks was not that good ...lets not talk bout it...so tomorrow im having test and a full dress rehearsal which clashes...so im going rehearsal abit later... im still not informed of the dress code...so much for full-dress...hahahahahaha.... been rotting at home alot.. got an idea for a new poem..but im kinda lazy to type it out..so maybe later2 yea...kinda hate life abit..haha..stupid but forget about it.. thats all for now...peace out!

poem

2008-07-31T08:01:00.000-07:00

My heart skips a beat when u gave me that kiss
For a moment all my sorrows seemed to have turned to bliss
The pain of missing u, never will it ever cease
Till i meet u again, my soul will never be at ease

Haunted by the bliss that i'm feeling
God please tell me that i'm not dreaming
If you have the intentions of ever leaving
Do it now so my heart can stop bleeding

My hearts been crushed over and over again
Unsure how much more can it handle the pain
Now that my feelings whirled up like a hurricane
All im hoping for is for this not to end up in vain

thinking of you

2008-07-29T08:32:00.000-07:00

Hours passed, you're still on my mind
Images of you imprinted clearly despite of time
I miss you so much i wish u'd be mine
Thinking of you, i can hardly see myself smile

Missing you is painful but i'll live through
Knowing that we'll meet each other in a day or two
All i've ever wanted was to be beside you
Lay in ur arms, watch the rising of the new full moon

k thats all..sorry but i really cant think.. goodnite =)

sch

2008-07-28T18:17:00.001-07:00

haha...in sch now..sitting beside sham(gegerl).... hahahaha...sham jgn marah eh... having revision for Understanding Weather now..but only nic,gq,aan listening..im partly listening...sham is bz watching Rock am Ring 2008 metallica's concert...syad is bz playing hp games...i feel like sleeping but cannot slp...ok sham juz laugh cause he saw me posting this...AND LOOK! a stupid asshole juz came in for class...fucking waste of time..dumb muthafuckas.. might as well go have breakfast then wait for next class to start..only 30mins left.... aan is being cheeky smiling at me..hahaha...sepak muke kau monyet..haha =)

Feeling confused i've no where to go
No one to turn to, no one to show
Must u be naive and treat me this way
What wrong have i done why dont u say

They say silence is golden, i say it aint true
U lied simply by saying that wasnt you
Walking alone, i'm crying in the rain
Now my heart is broken, suffering in pain

haha....ok its a short stupid poem..aan aku tau kau bace...aku nye poem tk sebagus kau..sorry ah k...k bye

Arab

songwritting

2008-07-28T08:43:00.000-07:00

ok today is a normal boring sch day..since when sch is fun....so shall not talk much about it...damn tired from jogging....now got thermodynamics assignment to complete...damn irritating...hard to find the virtual experiment!!!! and GQ is MIA donno where...hahahaha...so aan suggested to bring lappy to sch tomorrow which is heavy load..hahaha... dont know why...but i feel like writting a song...confirm stupid...hahahha...see how first la k.... thats all for today.. take care

Arab

sat

2008-07-26T08:21:00.000-07:00

aan..aku tau kau kpo suke nk tau hal aku...haha..sampai aku tk post semalam pon kau nk tanyer...hahahahahaha....lek ah bro main2 je.. ok...so yest went town wif aan ..he bought something nice..haha...then we went to eat and then played pool which he is getting better at..still need more training aan! then we went bugis to meet someone..hahahahha...dance was tiring but fun..still cant help laughing cause erin will laugh whenever she krump..and zira was learning how to krump..the new routine is nice..damn exhausted thats why didnt post yest..today was a boring day...its sat and i stayed home ...and finally fai called ask to play lan...stupid saturday... haha.. thats all for today..

Arab

What a GOOD day!

2008-07-24T03:42:00.000-07:00

my god...so freaking tired today...guess wad? i sleep during all my lessons..except for Plant Safety...i did slp la..but only when the class is abt to end..and Thermodynamics also didnt sleep cause get back test paper...and i passed!! hahahahaha.... other than that...was happily dozing off... soon later going to meet fai at simpang as usual..thursday nite..wakakka... tomorrow having dance prac as per norm...but before that going to accompany Aan buy something for someone... ;) cheeky boi! haha...buy for her never buy for me...hmph! AND FARHAN! PLS STOP ACTING CUTE! I FEEL LIKE TAKING A BASEBALL BAT AND SMACK UR FACE!...but nvm... we're cool..haha.. btw..sorry if my blog still sucks...too lazy to add anything now.. freaking tired ballz.. and to that someone...don try and act cute trying to scold me for sleeping late..haha..u do it sometimes... speak for urself k???? anyway..im done here ..take care

Arab

First entry!

2008-07-23T09:38:00.000-07:00

My first ever blog! And believe it or not i went quite thru hell juz to make it... lucky for me..erin was online to help..if not u people wont be reading this now! THX ALOT ERIN! nanti friday aku blanje kau k.... hahhaa.....im still damn new to this..so don expect much aite.. ok so today had 1 hr of stupid sch... waste of time..then went home...rest n rest..then went for dance prac! which OMG theres like hell lots of ppl who came...and i still couldnt believe wad happen...hard to believe it..it was during our smoke break...hahaha...most of u wouldnt know except for 2 people whom i wont be mentioning. =) anyways after that went back down and talk crap and stuff..then help ChaCha out wif her routine... it was awesome... ok im not gonna talk much on my first entry.. untill then...

Arab